Whats up! Guerrilla Hollywood (EPG) in the Heeezy!

People ask me why I am so tormented. Why do you talk about depressing subjects so much? Its not that I am pushing my problems on you, its just that I have to relieve myself of the pain and anger and suppression I have been under so long. I am fighting my demons the best way that I can. I use to hate life. Now I say fuck it and make the best of this crazy thing they call life.

My darkness is for my eyes only. It's here that I am never lonely. Others are blind to its beauty, its dangers, and its addictions. Afraid to look on the walls and not see their shadowy reflection, they’re destined to live in lies of light. My darkness replenishes what the blinding light tries to take away. I am revived by its touch and thrive on its strength. When the sun sleeps the imagination awakens. Lights glitter and sparkle, not dominate and expose. The sky is an enigma. The streets are unfamiliar yet inviting. Mystery lurks around every corner. A smile can turn into seduction. A touch into temptation. It all depends on where you are in the dark.

Have you given in to your darkest desires? Would you know where or how to begin?

I forewarn you. Be very careful. In my darkness there are demons slinking in empty spaces disguised as haunting memories or unhealthy temptations. These demons pretend to have the answers you seek. They overshadow the darkness with their twisted and blackened presence, threatening to destroy anything around them.

The weak befriend these devilish notions, needing to believe in their dark promises. They willingly take the hand of the demon undoubtedly losing their soul. The ones who have learned to see through these attractive illusions, find strength within a sacred light. This divine light is your soul. Its power casts away these demons ultimately freeing you.

My darkness holds truth and feelings of comfort, love, seduction, and peace. Yet it also weeps in pain and screams of betrayal. Here there are no walls. No need for outside protection or inside skeptical inspections. My darkness is filled with music of the darkest intentions, demanding passion of the darkest sensations. Reality is lost as fantasies are found. And the only sound that breaks the spell, are the whispers of secrets we never dare tell.

 
I came from Arkansas from a poverty stricken neighborhood. I am at a point in my life where I don’t hold back feelings anymore. Feelings I have held inside for soo long. So its not that IM not happy, I am just letting go…letting go. The first time I knew that I was going to have a tormented life was in the second grade..the little white kids kept calling me a nigger and I didn’t even know what it meant.

 
When I asked my mom what that meant all she could do is hold me and cry. She knew I was going to have one hell of a life ahead of me. But what could she do? Then I realized how poor we were shortly after. Then I realized that I was in a broken home…and by the 8^th grade I knew I was born cursed. But through all that I still felt like I was out of my element. I still felt like there was more out there for me than being poor, and no daddy, and racism and struggle. I caught a dope charge in Arkansas and they were ready to put me away, nobody gave a fuck except my sis ma and bro. It wasnt even mine..but they pinned me for it. I know it was time to take the game serious.  I knew I could never be a caged bird…my feathers are too bright.

 
In 92 I heard Pac for the first time..and I started writing. Ended up leaving Arkansas 14 years later and moved to California and I got noticed by Tila Tequila and Tila put me on with EGP. Then I met Big Syke from Thug Life so we got down and the rest is history. Now its war. I feel like nobody can touch me and anybody who steps in my way  I will demolish! Noone is going to stop me from feeding my kids. If this is the route I took to making me a better person then let me be!

 
Noone is going to step in the way of my happiness…or at least the pursuit of. Like Morgan Freeman said..Get busy living…or get busy dying…and you know what….he was damn right!

This  is the first nationwide release of Dren aka Guerilla Hollywood. Dren is a West Coast rapper with deep southern ties. "A Shot At Life " features  artists such as Tila Tequila, Big Syke From the late Tupac Shakur's Thug Life and Outlawz,Nump From E-40's Sic Wit It Records (Bay Areal) and Guerilla Soul from Tila Tequila's celebrated EGP. Look for hot production and catchy hooks on this invigorating CD. Full Length download (7.99) or Full Length download and hard copy of CD (9.99) available. All hard copys purchased will also be autographed!
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FOR THIS ALBUM:
Dren: After Party ft. Big Syke from Thug Life/Outlawz

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Be different. Say or do something that others wouldn't expect you to. Dont drive the way you know, get lost.......
Apply for the manager's position instead of the entry level-
Surprise her by cooking her dinner....not Top Ramen, but look up a recipe she KNOWS you cant cook.
Don't make love to her the same way this time..........try something different-be freaky today-make her laugh instead of cry-

Wear your hair a different way, wear colors you normally wouldn't. What do they REALLY think about you?
Try the one thing that scares the shi# out to you.
Stop being regular..........its boring-

Dren's random thought of the day-

Thats my quote of the day. I have so many friends that I left behind when I went on my fantastic voyage to Cali.....but when I talk to them its like I never left. What a great feeling.

Feature on a song-$1500.00
Beats:$750.00
Movie production-$20,000-$100,000 (depending on quality of actors/Union, Non-Union)
(I will man the project, write the script and cast the movie for you)
Movie/event showing-flat rate of $500.00 or we can negotiate hourly rate.

Most of my requests come from myspace, but some here also. If you need further info message me and we will work out the details.

Thanks, hope this helps.
G.H.

To Those Who Cant Handle The Pressures of THS Anymore.


I can say with ease, that there is maybe no one, in all of THS, who receives the amount of scrutiny that I do. If I post about my career, I am a trying to use EGP to promote myself. If I post about EGP, I am doing it for good P.R.

Despite all of that, the one thing you'd never hear me say is, "I can't handle the pressure of THS."

Over and over again I see people threatening to delete their page because of the high school antics, the fighting, and their in ability to get off the site.

Being childish and stupid is one of the best parts of being here. We have to be serious all day for our normal lives. I compare being on here to being drunk. Here we say and do things that we normally wouldn't do because we are protected by being on-line. Just like you can ride the excuse that you might of had TEE MANY MARTOONIES.

Everyone constantly accuses everyone else of trying to get attention. Think about it...we all love attention and use our profiles to get it.
Why do you think chicks post up the hottest picks they find of themselves on here. Why do you think every guy that has a six pack and pecs flex his muscles in every picture. For attention! Do you think that one irresistible girl, on the profile you just cant stop going to, just accidentally left a boob hanging out? Of course not. Everyone has a inner "star" in them. Everyone craves attention, we have been doing it since toddlers.
                                                                
But are they wrong? Of course not. Let them have fun and do their thing...stop hating. LOL. At the same time your business is your business......until you blast it out on your profile, now its public business. So don't get upset when someone leaves comments that you don't like, you put YOURSELF in that position so laugh about it. Deal with it. And move on folks. I get so many emails of people whining about what other's said about them and I am sure admin does too. ARE YOU SERIOUS FOLKS?

If it is that serious maybe you DO need to walk away from this site.
If you can't walk away from here...you have bigger problems than this site. You are bored, with a empty life and THS is all you have to fill it. Get a hobby, download some porn, or go for a walk LOL. Lighten Up People!!

The thing that pisses me off the most is when people feel the need to announce it. "I am deleting my page."
BUL#@HIT. All you are doing is crying for attention so people will convince you to stay. For me?

There is the door. Please don't re friend request me in 2 weeks when you relapse.

While I love writing and I appreciate the fact that many of you feel me, I have to make something clear: I didn't come here to catch up with old friends or network for my career. I joined this site because I was on Tila's myspace page and was trying to see what this was....and so did most of you. You just don't have the balls that I do to admit it.

 I ended up stumbling upon EGP, thought it was a great idea and got noticed by Tila Tequila. Tila promised that if you are a EGP member that she would help promote and help me with my career. So why do I get beat up and accused of "using" EGP to promote myself when the creator of EGP offered to help me promote myself...I dont get it, do you? Someone enlighten me.

I ended up falling in love with the EGP family and now look at us. We all have family in damn near 50 states and all over the world. If I just happened to have car trouble or got stranded in another state, chances are I have EGP family there that would help me no doubt. Guerrilla Soul is even helping me invest in my upcoming movie voluntarily. Now that's what I call EGP in action! But it works both ways...when the movie releases best believe I will triple her $$$. So we both come up, feel me?

Some of you guys have to look at THS for what it is. It is a place to have fun,worship Tila and meet people lol. Lighten up I say! LOL

Let me tell you something. If you can't handle the pressure of an on-line social website, you are going to be sh@# out of luck when it comes to handling the pressures of a job, kids, or God forbid the opposite sex.

So do me a favor. Have some fun around here...or shut the fu#@ up.


Damn...that felt good.

How I Came To Be Me....The Real.

My life and how I came to be who I am. (Revised for completion)
EGP is the family that I never had. I come from a very disfuntional family and my life has went from as low as you can go...to all my dreams coming true. Father figure? Never had one.
I grew up watching my father hit my mother, thats all I really remember him from. He pushed her down on some rail road tracks one day and she finally had enough and she stabbed him. He left us shortly after that and moved to Texas. I was around 5 I think. I didnt see him again until I was about 13 I think, only to find out he had become one of the biggest drug dealers in Dallas. He ran a prostitution ring, sold crack, and gambled his life away. He never sent one dime back to us. Needless to say he is in prison, for life may I add. I havent seen him since I was 13! He wrote me twice from prison but I felt if I opened the letters it would have been years of pain I would have re-opened for him not being there for me.

From that point life got even worse. My mother use to clean houses and made 40.00 a week. It was 4 of us kids but she was too proud to get on welfare. She was a hell of a woman. Many winters went by and we did not have heat at all. I remember she use to huddle me and my brothers and sister around a table with candles on it to keep warm. My bedroom window was busted out so it made it even worse in the winter time. I had to tape trash bags over the window to try to keep warm. I remember my soles of my shoes wearing off and having to pick out rocks out of my shoes. All the clothes I had were too big because the were passed down from my older brother. The pants I wore were practically folded over at the waist and held up with a belt so they would stay up. My mother's nerves were a wreck to the point where she would just scream at us all day long. One day I got into something and she told me to stop, but at the same time jerking a ice pick toward me......I guess she didn't realize how close she was and stabbed me in the eye with the ice pick. I have a red mark in my left eye even still today over that. That's how bad her nerves were.

My self esteem was sooooo low. I feel like I was too young to know what poverty was. I feel like little kids should not have to experience sh#@ like that. My stomach stayed upset from all the government issued powdered milk. I remember our dog..Fefe was so skinny I think he actually starved to death. I know this sounds crazy but it is so real. My mom sent us to school looking awful, day in-day out. Of course the other kids had a ball on us. I remember I had this friend named Cleavon who I really looked up to. His family was what we considered wealthy and I wanted to be just like him. Me and him were in the first grade on the playground and he told me not to hang around him while at school because my clothes were dirty. He felt it made him look bad at school hanging around me, but we could play after school however. Little did he know the plumbing at my house was jacked up, and my mom could only wash once a week for 4 kids!

Little things like that scar you for life. I remember the first time I realized that I was considered being different because I was black. Granted this was 1981 and things are better now. I will never forget...Jeffrey Crites and Damon Kratz singing (like a nursery rhyme) "One lil, Two lil, Three lil niggers...Four lil', Five lil'........................
I went home and asked my mother what a nigger was and she just sat me on her lap and started crying. I was only in the first grade. I had no desire to be in school..why would I? I flunked damn near every class I had up until the 7th grade. By the time I was in the 8th grade I had already had enough and prayed to God that I would die. Every day of my life I felt I was tormented. Everyone always use to ask me why I was so shy when I was younger, I didnt feel the need for interaction.
I was treated like sh#@ everyday in school, then had to go home to a house that was falling down, literally. The toilet in the bathroom was falling through the floor. On top of that it didnt even work so we had to pour buckets of water down the toilet to make it flush.

Through all of this I still had that little "light that shined inside of me. I remember before my father left I walked into my mothers room un-announced. All I could hear was my mother screaming "Stop", and my father on top of her. I later found out that he was raping her..I just didnt know what the term was at that time. I remember writing my mother a letter that night and putting it under her pillow. All it said was "I love you , and I am sorry". When she found it she was so touched, I think that was the single most wonderful moment I will ever remember that me and my mother shared. We cried together for what seemed like an eternity. It turned out that Larry (my father) did that reguarly, he raped her when she got pregnant with me.........I think thats why I am so filled with sorrow at times. It wasnt that she would not sleep with him, it was more like he liked to fight with her and beat her..THEN do his thing. Of course at that point my mother didnt want to be with him so he would rape her. He's was one evil individual, I dont consider him a father at all. My conception was during my mom getting raped......Now how's that for a person's self esteem. If I had been big enough at that point I would have taken my own father's life. If I hated people I would hate him. He hasnt even seen my kids yet, and they are 6 and 11.



My mother couldn't make it by herself so she met her next man...or should say next monster. He is dead now, and it appeared he did a cold bitter, lonely death. He would help my mother out with the bills, but after a few years he began to look at my sister...yes in that way. He made an advance to her and tried to offer her money for it. When she told my mother about it, I felt like my mother was more mad at her than she was him. He stayed for a short period of time after that but finally left.  He did not physically abuse my mother often, but he mentally abused her for about 10 years.

Even to this day my mother is so afraid to meet people she barely leaves the house...ever. As a family it was so much turmoil that we all pushed each other away from each other for some reason. I have two brothers and a sister but we rarely communicate. I know this sounds weird but its almost like we remind each other of the past so much......we stay away from  each other....thats the only way I can make sense of it. My sister turned out great, she is a doctor in Texas now and the pride of my mother. The Dallas Morning News just did this article about the million dollar house she bought a few years ago. Here is the link she goes by Dr. Lawson: http://www.dallasnews.com/sharedcontent/dws/fea/home/stories/DN-nhg_Lawson_0125liv.ART0.State.Edition1.46e4d54.html

<b>I got my first keyboard at around 14 years old.</b> It was one of those cheap kiddy ones that makes crappy music lol. I did the best I could with it and started making beats with it. I had a cassette recorder and would hit record and rap over the beats into the microphone while the keyboard was playing. Now, this was probably the most ancient way of recording but I was working with what I had. I would get a 3 pack of Certron cassette tapes ( I know you ol' schoolers remember those) and sell them for $2 to everyone I knew. They sounded like sh#$ but people bought them from me for some reason. I remember one lady bought one from me and after I walked away she threw it in the trash. I was in shock but she paid me so hey...lol.  I got it out and resold it lol.
Anyway, that's where my business savvy side comes from. I made tapes for years like that selling them back home. I became good at making beats as I got older which led me to meet alot of people. My best friend at the time (RIP Terry Mendenhall) always said he was going to blow up with me too. He was shot and killed around 1994-95. I released my first legitimate tape entitled "Let It Go" in which I dedicated the song to  him and it made it on the radio on Power 92.3 in Arkansas. Terry was still trying to get his high school diploma when he got shot, so the principal at Malvern High School put his diploma in the casket with him when they buried him.....I never cried that much in my life....my best friend got his high school diploma at his own funeral-the saddest funeral I have ever attended. I always told him I was going to California to "make it" one day, I guess everyone says that huh..? 

On the way to California I had a 3 day drive to make and about $300.00 for gas. I made it to Arizona and was out of gas. I thought........so close, what now? All I had was a box of cd's I had made of my music. I stood at the gas station an entire night trying to sell my cds.  I believe the town I was in was called Flagstaff..or something like that. I had a hard time selling the cd's, and then the one white guy rolls up- I ask him to buy one and he says "No man...we don't listen to alot of rap around here you are in the wrong spot, " Its mostly uppity people around here and they dont like that hip hop sh#@".  What a blow to my ego. Needless to say I stayed there another 4 hours and I DID end up selling some cds........I did'nt give up. I had enough gas to get here to California with about $20 left to my name- California. It will grow you up real fast! But it didn't take me long to catch up to speed. When you are homeless you tend to have more of a sense of urgency with things...everything. So between using Craislist, luck, and my drive I had from selling those $2 tapes as a 14 year old kid, I actually met good people who helped me get on my feet. When I first got to Cali I went to San Jose to meet this girl I had talked to over the internet 10 years prior, she was the only person I knew in California. I tried living with her for awhile, and actually tried to date her but it absolutey didnt work out. I also felt bad because I was only getting in a relationship to have somewhere to stay.


I left.
Now what?
I mostly hung out at the 7-Eleven and roamed around at the Great Mall in San Jose. I remember it was the biggest mall I had ever seen before, I think it was a mile long. I hated going in there because I couldnt buy anything. I remember walking by people that were eating at the outdoor restaurants and wanting to snatch their food and take off running. That is some funny sh#@ to  me now, but it wasnt then. I felt like a complete loser, I couldnt shower and for the first time in my life I actually saw what homeless people feel like...REAL homeless people. I had a problem meeting people and creating friendships because I felt so ashamed of how I looked. I was so hard on myself because here I was a 31 year old man that ran off to California to make it without a gameplan. I would call home to my mom in Arkansas and lie and say that I was ok...when I really was hopeless. For the first time in my life.....................................................I was hopeless.

I had a connect I had previously met at a Wal Mart in Arkansas. Mitch. Mitch was a project coordinator for a recording label in Hollywood. He was coming through Arkansas from Atlanta and stopped and WalMart looking at cd's. I happened to be standing next to him and I heard his son say, "Daddy buy me this cd". I heard Mitch tell his son that he could get it from the artists' manager. I walked up to Mitch and asked him what he did, and if he worked in the music industry. We started to talk for awhile and exchanged numbers. I bombarded him with every song, show, picture I had while I was still in Arkansas.

I called him and set up a meeting. I was in no shape to meet up with him. I went to the Goodwill and found the best looking suit they had. It still looked like crap..something fresh off the 70's show lol! But still, I didnt have enough money to buy it so I balled it up and walked clean out of the store. I had to steal that suit...I just had to do what I had to do.  I then went to a gas station and took a "wash off" in the bathroom with the nasty hand soap that was in there. I felt like crap having to do this but there was no way I was going to  the biggest meeting in my life looking homeless. We met up mutiple times before we got something worked out. Through Mitch I was able to not only get money to get me going, but secured distribution and secure me a home with the signing bonus.

I know this sounded like it happened easy,but to spare you the extra reading I shortened this part. It actually took blood sweat and tears to secure this deal. It wasnt just my music that got me connected, but my drive...as Mitch put it. Rappers come a dime a dozen, but I had to steal clothes just to look decent at the meetings- I think Mitch could tell I was hungry to make it. I had went to the extreme, let everything I ever knew go to come to California. The chances of me being in the postition I am in are almost impossible. I know leaving on a whim to chase your dream isnt the smartest thing to do, but I was at a point of desperation. I wasnt going to settle for what I had. It got to the point where it was hard looking my son in the eyes..I felt like a failure. I just woke up one day and said its time to do something with my life. I am also smart enough to know that most people that took the road I traveled never make it, that is why I know I am blessed. Now when I see my son again....I will be proud to be called his father. My kids will never have to go through what I have been through.......
-all because I took a chance.

Guerrilla Hollywood
9:35am
1-25-08

First off I would like to say thanks for the support you all have given me here at THS. This is such an honor to lead such a wonderful and caring organization.  I want to say thank you to Tila Tequila for believing in me and giving me this chance because without her none of this would be possible. Tila has shown all of us that she is here for her people, most celebs in her position would not take the time to form an organization of this kind. I see celebs all over Hollywood and most of them act like it hurts them to even smile and say hello, really I see it ALL the time. So on behalf of every member of THS.com, Tila............WE LOVE YOU!

We are Tila's family now, and when you have family you support them. Dont hesitate to stand up for her, or the organization proudly. You will find some that will doubt you, or the organization and it is important to represent the organization right.  Tila has a very big fan base which also includes alot of our younger generation which is a very important key to our success. We have to start changing ourselves from the inside out to make a difference. Yes, it looks cool to go out and protest and chant for a good cause, but if your heart is not in it we are not being effective. Being a member of EGP is a lifestyle and you have to change the way you think until it becomes second nature.

One of our biggest focuses will be on the youth (as Tila expressed on the Tyra Banks Show) for the youth are the future of the world. The youth now face so many more obstacles than the youth did when I was growing up. Alot of the youth do not have direction or positive living environments and role models to guide them through life. I know if I had positive figures in my life when I was growing up I would not have made half of the mistakes I did. If there was a EGP then I would have wanted to do right because I would not have wanted to let my group down. The EGP could be the deciding factor that stops a youth from trying drugs for the first time when they were pressured by peers.

We are going through thousands of applications at the time to put the right people in the EGP. We are looking for the people with that special "something" about them. It is very difficult to get the feel for someone without actually meeting them, so it is important to be thorough when filling out the application. I worked on my application for an hour before I sent it in, but I see applications with 3 word answers. This is all we have to go by, so take the time to put your feelings into it. This is a fraternal organization, we expect you to represent!  My dream is to be able to provide social services to individuals in need and to be a voice, but not according to any certain religious or political affiliations. Unlike guilds EGP members do not necessarily share a common profession, but have a common goal. The history of any particular fraternal society is difficult to follow, but if we are serious about changing the world we will thrive.

My goal is to help Tila get the group organized. I mean be realistic, as much as Tila loves her fans it is not possible to reach out to respond to all emails and follow up with every issue. Feel free to contact me if you have any issues or need help accomplishing a goal, or if you just need advice. All of you that are already members get started!  We are building the foundation now, but there so many things we can do on a daily basis. Change is like the snowball effect.......it starts out small and gets bigger once it starts to roll. Eventually it will be contagious and a way of life. It will take some time to get where we want to be, however this will be a ever changing organization that continues to grow. This is not a fad, a "be cool tool", or a promotional kick for Tila.....she really cares about us and we need to show her the same love. None of us are perfect, but when you become EGP you carry yourself in a different way. We need to be productive people who are not scared to stand up for what you believe in. There are going to be some times when it will be hard to smile....thats when if really matters that you have a family like this for support.

I was talking to Master P just yesterday about this movement, and he thinks it is awesome. I talked with Tricky, the British icon minutes ago   (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tricky)  also, and they both think this is such a great idea and want to be part of it. My biggest challenge in which I am going to engage in next week is getting corporations to back us up. Any of you who have inside connections let me know and between me and Tila we might can get some financial backing to support our movement. Sure I could just start going out and giving out money to people but that is not practical. I am more interested in helping people get jobs, get into college  and being able to take care of our families. I want the men of EGP to be able to gather and discuss issues concerning parenting. People seem to forget about us guys when it comes to parenting. Most guys don't have support like women do when it comes to raising children. I am not saying ALL women but most women have some sort of support system.  Women are able to cry on each others shoulders, while most men keep their anger bottle up and eventually causing problems inside the family. Women have other girlfriends,social services or moms to help them learn what to do when learning parenthood and I want men to have a support system also. I hate to say it but alot of men just never learned HOW to be a father.

Why join EGP?
Ask yourself that before you apply. I looked at one application and the app read " I want to be a member of EGP because I know how to rap". Is that a legitimate reason to join? Of course not. Maybe if it was stated that they wanted to join because they know how to rap and have dreams of  signing with a major label,  which will enable them to help feed their family it would have been accepted. Get my drift? It is all about making your dreams come true, which in turn will probably make someone else's dream come true. It's not just about becoming famous, one applicant's dream is just to go to college which is absolutely fine. We all have dreams but we all don't always have what it takes to make those dreams come true. Thats where EGP steps in. What if your a model, and we have another EGP member that owns a modeling agency and another EGP member that owns a clothing line? Dont you see how all the pieces could be put together...you are talking about a networking heaven! Then to top it all of you are a member of Tila Tequila's organization, which just having that on your resume might give you that extra attention you needed. We have to start thinking outside of the box. I'm sure most of us are struggling, but it doesnt have to be that way. Be smart, stay focused and use this to your advantage.

I can't say enough about Tila for giving back to the people. How many celebrities do you know that did the same.............exactly. To those of you that have actually got emails and responses from Tila, how did that make your feel? I know when I got my first email from Tila I had a horrible day with a flat tire, came in and Tila made my whole day just by a few lines. How many emails and comments have you got from Paris Hilton, Brittney, Christina, or Lyndsey...................see that's exactly what I'm talking about. You alway hear stars talk about  they care about their fans but do they really? Thats why the world is going nuts over Tila because she is down in the trenches with us fighting just like the muth*%#$@!* soldier she is!!!!!!!!!!!!! -Somebody give me a Amen! That's why it bothers me when media actually says anything negative about Tila, and not even bring up EGP. Why am I not surprised?

That said, I also want to add that even if you just want to help somebody we need you. Not everyone wants to be famous or rich or even be known. That is absolutely fine. We need people like that because a tribe can't function if there are all chiefs and no Indians. I'm getting with Tila about opening an account so we can be set up to accept donations, especially since I am going to meet with corporations like Wal-Mart (maybe) industry execs, and applying for government grants so we can get up going. When we start getting events going I want to be able to come to the different cites and meet you all, and hopefully Tila will be able to. We dont have to wait to get started. Contact your local newspapers and radio  stations about this organization. You don't have to be EGP to do that, but having Tila's name behind you sure wont hurt your chances of making it happen! Make sure you keep me posted if you make any major moves so me/Tila wont get blindsided. She still will need to know what the function consists of because of her name is attached to EGP. We make moves as a unit.

Things on my agenda are getting us I.D.'s made, shirts, and working on our code of ethics piece. I will continue to make videos because they are compelling and are paid more attention too. The more our name gets out, the more respected we will be. However we want our name out there the right way. When we get to the point where we have to get out there in the field and execute, we want to do it in a organized, non violent way. EGP has a hardcore image which represents our toughness, but we are more tactical...with every move calculated. I don't care if you are a democrat or republican, some of this sh#@ Mr. Bush is is doing is just outright wrong and when the media sees people standing up and coming together about and issue it stirs up dust. We can't win them all, but we damn sure will try to. I know I am all over the place with this piece right now but I just want you to have an idea whats on my mind.
   
I don't want anyone to get lost in the shuffle out there. We are trying to cover alot of ground in a short period of time. Keep emailing us with your ideas, issues that you feel need to be addressed. As we approve more members in your area and abroad it will allow units to start forming. Our younger EGP's can't do it alone, they have to have us to help them. I encourage all of our younger EGP's to get your parents or guardians involved, they will be your key to making changes as they will be your main support. I am blow away by the applications, some by 14 year olds talking about that alot of adults are scared to take on. We have a great generation coming up........all they need is guidance. I am so excited about this because the EGP can actually send some kid on the right path and stick with them forever. It might be what makes Mr. Whoever from Wherever stay at home with his kids instead of going out with the buddys for beer. The kids need us, we need each other-

Even if you only do the smallest thing like just making someone smile....That's what I'm talking about ya feel me? That's EGP!
I know we can't combat all the problems in the world, but we can change the immediate things in our lives and others. Start small. Work your way up. It starts with changing ourselves and our outlook on life in general. Living in this world in general can be quite a challenge for some of us. Add some financial crisis along with the fact that alot of people are mean just for the hell of it and life can get pretty tough. For all of you EGP's that have kids, get them involved. Whether you agree with Tila's lifestyle or not, this is something that noone can deny is beautiful. So I don't care anyone has to say about Tila and EGP, I got her back 100% and if you are down with EGP I got your back 100%. I wish I was a part of this years ago, I think I would so much farther in life.

G.H.